How did I end up paying money to suck a dick

How did I end up paying money to suck a dick

Payments not always come in the shape of pounds or dollars. But I bet you never paid money to suck a dick. Well, kids, I have! I went to a guys house started sucking his dick and he told me to go home. Return taxi and a bottle of wine, that’s how much I paid to suck a dick. Yes a dick was decent size but still not worth paying money for it. Although now I see it as best spend 16 pounds in my life because I have learned something.

I am one of those girls who don’t think that men should pay for everything. I am more than happy to call myself a taxi and buy my own drinks especially when I know I will get a orgasm out of it, but if you don’t perform and kick me out ,you piece of shit, at least have the fucking decency to call me a cab, you fucking moron.

I have met all sort of men in my life but never met such self cantered piece of shit that only cares about his problems and so happens that every girl he had ‘treated him badly’. I bet you’ll use this story that I wrote a blog about you to gain sympathy from girls.

I should have realised how big of piece of shit you were when you were engaged with three girls and they all happened to treat you badly, all the women keep calling you and you call them bitches. My mama once told me: ‘I respect your father for the fact that he never spoke badly about his exes so I was sure that he would not talk about me badly when we have divorced.’

You know you never had to treat me like shit or promise to date me because I was happy to sit on your penis anyway. Hey, I have a weakness for big penises. But see you get off on control and paying mind games, where I don’t need them. I am self aware and own my shit kind of girl (some of my friends will disagree, but they have seen me drunk after all), but I own my sexuality I am not afraid to get what I want.

I cant believe you thought I would make you dinner when you come over to stay at mine. I cant believe you stayed at mine. You only had sex with me once!!! WTF? You are my bf now or something?  what else did you expect I would do? Wash your socks? Do your laundry? Do you realise that you were just tall dick with no personality. Everything about you annoyed me, you are disrespectful to women, you are a liar. You lied to me from the beginning: you told me you weren’t in the navy, you told me you wanted to date me and then just messed with me, and this time you told me that your friend got into a fight and I had to leave after I just started to suck your dick.

You know how I see this situation and I am probably right: you invited me over as part of kinky foreplay for you and your sub or some other chick you fucking. You disrespected me so much that you were ‘’messaging’’ whilst I was blowing you. When I stopped you have told me: no you can carry on I don’t mind. Seriously? Have you met me? Everything in life is about me! I wont allow anyone to not pay attention whilst I suck your dick!

Another thing, lets be honest, that you have had your phone in your hand because you wanted to film me sucking your dick and send it to someone. 1. You know that I don’t want that; 2. Did you know it is illegal to do so?; 3. Once again you twisted piece of shit.

The only thing I regret is that I showed emotion that night, but if I have sex in mind and I don’t get it I am like a child I have a tantrum. I was so nice to you that evening but what I really wanted to say and I am not being vindictive right now. But I wanted to say that you’re lying sun of the bitch and I have such low opinion of you and delete my number and never contact me. But I don’t make  snap decisions I usually try to sleep on it.

Also, I only agreed to date you because I wanted to ensure I would still be able to sit on your dick. When I told my friends that I agreed to date you everyone laughed and I asked if I liked you. No I didn’t, you are boring, nationalist, have shit tattoos, not particularly good looking, apart from the dick you have nothing to offer. Well, after the break up you would call me a bitch. My bff said it well: you sit on the dick, you don’t date the dick.

So yes, I paid money to suck a dick but its probably the best 17 pounds I have ever spend. You have taught me so much and I am so thankful to you, you made me write a blog I have not written for a very long time, and for a long long long time you gonna be a party story I tell to people and we laugh about it.

 

See you later bitch! 😉

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Emotional FuckBoys

Emotional FuckBoys

I and my friend K where talking about men, who are present in our lives but it, feels that they are there just to mess with our heads. I and K seem to have at least one of those people in our lives. We spent about half hour discussing it before I had to leave to get my hair done. On my way to the bus stop I thought of a phrase: emotional fuckboys.

Google search for emotional fuckboys did not show any definitions, but according to Urban Dictionary there are several definitions of fuckboys. Let’s begin:

  1. Fuck boy- A person who is a weak ass pussy
    that ain’t bout shit.
  2. fuckboys come in all shapes and sizes and results may vary but when he a fuckboy…he a fuckboy…and u will know
  3. A manipulating dick who does whatever it takes to benefit him, regardless of who he screws over. They will screw over anyone and everyone as long they get what they want.
  4. A Fuckboy is the type of guy who does shit that generally pisses the population of the earth off all the time. He will also lead girls on just for hookups, says hes really into you but doesn’t want to deal with all the “relationship bullshit” just to fuck you. He thinks about himself and only himself all the time but pretends to be really nice. He also does really fucked up shit and then complains about people who do the same old shit as him. once a fuckboy always a fuckboy, because fuck boys ganna be fuckboys.

There are even more available definitions on the website of the term fuck boy. So, if you fancy checking it out further please visit: http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=fuck%20boy

So, to conclude we could say that ‘emotional fuckboy’ is an individual who generally seems nice, they are friendly and able to talk nice but they will screw anyone and everyone over just to get what they want and more than likely they just think about themselves. Different to fuckboys you probably never had sex with them or had it once or twice but they still show up in your life to mess with your head further.

I got two of those in my life!

Emotional fuckboy no1 A.K.A Fishmonger- I have met him nearly two years ago and always had a strange attraction towards him. He wasn’t good lucking but was good with people and able to charm everyone including me. Also, since I am a massive accent whore it helped because he had a welsh accent.

I didn’t make a move on him because at the time I had a boyfriend, I used to see him around because our city is not the biggest and we used to end up drinking in the same places. Also, later he opened his own restaurant on one of the busiest streets in our town.

By the time he opened his restaurant me and my bf where done, so I could enjoy presence of other men and also was able to hit on Fuckboy no1. I kind of did and we agreed to go for a drink, that weekend he was away in wales and we meant to meet up following week.

That never happened because I got a bit drunk, little bit intense and it became awkward.  I still saw him around a lot and got mocked for my behaviour. I became regular drunk dialer. I am not proud of it but didn’t care much about it anyway because I knew he could not think worse of me.

Anyway, few months ago I found out all the truth about this man who even though I drunk dialled but I actually thought very highly about, as a business owner I thought he was doing great and his ideas where amazing. Food I thought was awesome… but sadly he wasn’t that at all. It really crushed me and I was super emotional about it. It broke my heart, someone who I also admired was a complete scam.

After everything that happened, I promised myself never to sleep with or not to drunk dial him. This was quite easy at that time because I made a bet not to drink for two weeks.

At the same time while I wasn’t drinking his business was slowly dying and at 1.30 am on the Saturday morning I received a message on fb from him asking if I was ok because he hasn’t received early hour phone calls.

I responded telling about me not drinking and asking wtf does he want from me. He explained that he did not want anything and he was just curious about how I was etc. eventually, he started talking about sex and that we could have a kinky night in. It followed by him telling me he enjoyed other people being involved and ropes.

The conversation ended, but the messing with my head just started. So, on the Sunday I got drunk because our drinking ban was lifted. I managed to drunk dial him few times. However, he was constantly at the back of my mind everything that happened with truth coming out about him, it mixed with my daddy issues and trying to fix him. So, by Tuesday it got so much that I saw my friend K and I was like Guuuurl we need to get drunk and oh boy I did!

Conclusion:

13 missed calls, 1 message: WHY DON’T YOU JUST LOVE ME!

I don’t remember this, but I did it. I can’t blame him, I clearly have no impulse control, and I have more issues than vogue. BUT at the same time if your life is going is going sideways and shit is about to hit the fan, dude, do not try to gain control by using a venerable young women who you know has issues to practice control…

Yes, it had your desired effect on me and you used me. Congratulations! At the same time, my life can only get better and I will learn from my mistakes and you forever will be scamming arsehole!

Emotional Fuck boy 2.0

He is someone I met through Fuck boy 1.0, which I can only assume they come in packs. We met at the restaurant during a bonfire night and I asked for his number because he seemed as an interesting human being.

I got his number he tried to kiss and then added me on fb. Messaged me some weird stuff few times and I decided to unfriend him on facebook. I even forgot about him.

Several months after I received facebook message asking how I was and I decided to ignore it. Later I saw him on tinder and decided to give it a go. So, we matched, we talked and he was an interesting human being, therefore we went for a drink. We also managed to have sex. I found out that he disappeared from my life because he was seeing someone at the time but now it was over.

At that point I really liked him and I saw and felt that because he was older, mature, had kids and a dog that this could lead to something. We carried on talking after we had sex he was busy all weekend and I was out and about that weekend. What happened was we run in the same restaurant on the Sunday where I was very hangover, slightly drunk. He was polite to me there but later I told him I had taken drugs so that kind of change the situation.

Every time I agreed to make plans with him he would cancel. It’s either work or he had a drink or he could not pick me up etc. I am simple girl so I got a taxi.

When I got there he was drinking red wine before then he had cider and he became emotionally abusive to me saying that I am messing with his life, that his boys should not see this, that if his wife who he is divorcing would know about us would not let see the boys.

I understand that, that weekend was messy I was drunk for two days, I took drugs, but it doesn’t define me as a human being and who the fuck are you to judge me like that when you have made fair share of mistakes in your life.

After that, he started ignoring my messages, my phone calls, my facebook messages. I was slightly sad, because even though we did not work out I still saw him as this amazing human being, he was intresting and funny. I wanted to stay friends.

Few months have passed and what happens I receive a facebook message from him telling me that he misses my drunken nonsense.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?

We start talking again and I am always willing to give people a second chance but he comes back every time into my life when he has issues and want to make he feel better about himself. This behaviour has to stop. Yes, I care about people but I also have feelings you can’t come back to my life when it’s comfortable and mess with my head.

Conclusion:

These emotional fuckboys are probably in your everyday life. People you want to be with or were with, someone you care about but they seem to want you or need you when it is comfortable for them.

You need to realise it and if it is unhealthy to you RUN the fuck away from them. Block them, cut them out and put yourself around amazing people that care about you.

What is it like to be twenty something bisexual

What is it like to be twenty something bisexual

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I am bisexual and I am also on Tinder.

As a bisexual woman I face a lot of interesting reactions from people when they find out about my sexuality. I should start with:  I came with terms of my sexuality at the age of 22, when I went to Human Rights Training in Iceland. I knew always that I was attracted to girls, I have kissed a girl before and I liked it. I also had sex with a girl.

But then I met this wonderful man and was in the relationship with him for two and a half years until a year ago, during that period I did not count myself as a bisexual because I was in the relationship with a boy. To be honest I never understood the idea of bisexuality, because at the end of the day I thought you choose to be with one or the other gender. So how can I be bisexual?

It’s worrying that there is such limited education about sexual orientation, that I could not understand my own sexual orientation until I was 22.

In my head bisexuality could only work if you were having threesomes. That view has changed when I went to Iceland to Human Rights Training, where I met a girl and actually saw myself being in the relationship with.

So after I broke up with my boyfriend and as most twenty something women would do I went on Tinder. I am very open about my sexuality with my friends, most of them know about it now. Few family members might be aware of my sexual orientation, but most of them do not know. On Tinder I decided to be open about my sexuality because I felt that if people have problems with my sexual orientation they would not match with me. I did not think I will have completely opposite reaction.

I didn’t realise how misinformed society is about bisexuality and how bisexual women are sexualised, I am constantly contacted by people who will ask if I am bisexual and I would say yes. The next question would be either offer of a threesome or question if I ever had threesome. So at this point, instead of looking for a person on Tinder I am busy educating people about bisexuality, that not necessarily if I am bisexual I am into threesomes. Also I get called greedy a lot.

Before I came out as bisexual to myself or other people for that matter, I had a bisexual friend and she used to tell me about these things and I wouldn’t believe her. But it is. You are subject of harassment by these uneducated people.

They have misshaped image of bisexuality, part of it is because of porn. Where they don’t care what it is like and they project these images on to you. By now I have been called greedy, that I can’t decide. I also heard comments from my homosexual friends that I am confused or not ready to come out.

How am I greedy?? If I date one person at the time, if I am not into threesomes and I don’t want a threesome right now. Maybe one day, but I am not interested in this right now.

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Threesome porn- yes please. Actual threesomes- not so much.

There is a lack of education about bisexuality. First of all, bisexuality need to be made more visible. Second of all, there should be more education about sexuality and that there are more than two sexual orientations. Third of all, if someone comes out as bisexual to you, they might want a threesome, but that is not the reason why they count themselves as bisexual. Fourth of all, if someone comes out as a bisexual they are not confused, nor are they greedy, they just happened to like both genders. We have to stop brushing bisexual people under the carpet just because some people do not understand what it is like to be bisexual or thinks that it is not possible. yes_im_bisexual.-162561

Be kind, accept and love!

P.s. if there are errors in this post please do not hesitate to contact me. English is my second language after all.